The toothbrush

Apologies for the posting delays. In my rush to share with the BT, I brought up the blog. Then I had to hide it, and was afraid to post anything to it in case he had already found it. I’ve since been green-lighted to keep posting. So this issue is a couple of weeks old. 

I admit to being a little bit at war with myself as I’m dating the BT. As many commitment issues as I have, I can’t stand the anxiety of new relationships. I just want to get to the part where we’re completely comfortable with each other. I know, I know, I’m the anti-romantic. One aspect of this is my willingness to start leaving things at each other’s apartments. First off, I absolutely hate carrying things. Mainly because I’m lazy, but also because I don’t like having a big ol’ purse with me to attract thieves. And while I get very uncomfortable at the thought that I’ll have to unfriend someone after we break up, the $2 I lose on the extra toothbrush doesn’t bother me in the slightest.

So after a couple of times when the BT forgot his toothbrush on a night he was staying at my house, I offered to buy him one. He laughed it off, saying he was extremely fussy about his toothbrush choices. The next time he forgot, I offered again. And got a similar response. I wasn’t keeping count, but it’s likely I said something on the next occasion as well. And the next time, I was about to say something when it occurred to me if I brought it up one more time I was going to start making a federal issue out of it. The light bulb went off when he left a bottle of near empty contact lens solution at my house and then remembered to take it back the next weekend. The most he’s willing to do is leave a contact lens case in the afternoon if he's returning that night.

I can’t figure this out. What does it mean? Or doesn’t it? And how long do I have to wait before I can leave a stupid toothbrush at his place?